I have been in such a funk lately, I just don't feel like blogging.

Lame I know, I apologize, I'm just down in the pits lately. Definetly not fun to be around these days and I am getting aware of this so maybe I can snap out of it. I don't know if I would even get out of bed if it wasn't for Avery. How ridiculously blessed I am to have her and Evan!

Things/Happenings of late:
* Chopped off 5 inches and added bangs today, so far nobody has noticed.....hmmm
* Avery had her first official boo-boo thanks to the corner of the coffee table, busted her lip up pretty bad, worse, she tripped over my foot. OIY! Corner protectors will be in place this week!
* Possibly finding a job SOON. (I have some remarkable friends looking out for me)
*New phones and new carrier. SO LONG SPRINT YOU DEVIL.
* Taking Avery to the Denton Fair tomorrow and am ubber excited.
* Getting Antsy about our trip to OH, can we do this financially? yes, if I can plan this out to the last penny. less than a month to go.
* My car may be ready by this week!!!
* Insomnia, day 6 ugh.
* My little friend is now 15 days delayed, stressed much? Took a test it was negative, no shocker there, still though.....
* New Addiction: Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman!

Fin.

I have been a crummy blogger. I apologize.

Things have been so crazy around here and this past week was one I know my family would much soon forget. To sum it up in the words of my MIL "The bombs keep dropping." Nothing good happened for a lot of us, lots of things up in the air, lots of heartache, lots of negative blah-ness in general and I would much rather it go away all together. However, it's nothing we can't overcome together. Nothing we know God won't provide for. Just very trying times.

With that said, please, keep my family in your prayers. I don't seem to have the words for comfort or strength it seems and well, wisdom seems scarce with me these days (I'll blame lack of sleep).

What else.....hmm.

I'm still looking for a job. I've decided to no longer get disheartened about this. I know there is a job out there for me and I know I won't be unemployed forever. 3 months is just a long time when you think about it. I put in at least 2 applications a day, I call, I apply online, I've signed up for every website known to man and still...NOTHING. I enjoy the time with Avery I'm getting out of it and I'm getting my community service hours done faster than I planned (not complaining). Still, though. I feel so guilty and like such a failure sometimes when I see how stressed Evan is over being the only one bringing in money for us. He's not going to school this semester due to our finances and that is my biggest guilt. HE's close to getting his bachelors and now because of me he is being set back yet again.

We are still going to Ohio in Sept. We'll be driving with Avery, that's 17 hours in the car!!!! I think we may stop in TN or KY for a night and then go on to OH. We're going for a wedding for some amazing friends who are totally worth the drive. I'm working for my mom on fridays for some extra money to use for the trip. We'll be gone the 23rd-29th so please pray for us about this, it may not be the best thing right now in our financial situation but we can pull it off with some good planning. I think we're talking about heading out around 7pm so that way we can drive all night and it won't effect Avery since she'll be asleep anyway and it will minimize stops if you know what I mean. Any tips? Any advice?

Avery is thriving. She now has THREE chompers that she loves to show us by nibbling on our fingers or drooling excessively on our hands. She is a speed crawler and can stand up on her own and pull herself up against things. I was walking by 10 months, Evan and I think Avery will try to be walking by 9! She turns 8 months this week which is hard to believe. I say that every month though I know. Her hair is also coming in rather fast now, it's a strawberry blonde though which has me worried, I so hope she doesn't take after her aunt Jackye and uncle Jonathon and go with the red hair. Anything but red.

I've been looking up themes for her birthday party (yes, we're starting to plan it). Her theme is Hello Kitty and I plan on having lots of cupcakes instead of cake.

I think this is a good entry for now, I'll post some new pictures next time. In the mean time I'm going to watch my new addiction; Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman. This show is amazing and I want the entire series!

I think August 8th is always going to hit me hard, no matter how long it's been or how many children God blesses me with.
I know I am ridiculously Blessed with Evan and Avery and I know things happen for a reason. I got closure with our miscarriage shortly after I knew my pregnancy with Avery was safe but just like last August 8th it's like this switch is flipped and my mind just races with all those "what If" questions and thoughts of our Angel Baby.

Evan and I decided to make August 8th a secret celebration between us and our little one. Every August 8th we'll take a moment to wish our baby a Happy Birthday with Jesus and then let God know what we're Thankful for.

Interesting conversations

So I had a very weird interview this morning one that I'm sure will end up being yet another NO Thank You. I didn't want to go home and be sad again and decided to give myself a pick me up at the local Panera Bread next to the Fort Worth zoo where I currently still am sitting using the free wi-fi with no guilt. I've been here maybe an hour now and just had my day made by the ladies at a nearby table talking about ME.

Here's what was said:
Lady #1: This was a great idea, this is the biggest panera I've been to.
Lady#2: I come here all the time it's always got a lot of people on laptops.
Lady#3: Like that girl beside us, looks like she's on that Facebook.
Lady#1 & #2: yeah she is.
Lady #4: What a beautiful baby picture!
Lady #1: No way that's hers, she looks too young.
Lady#3: Young, she has a tattoo on her foot! Can't be too young.
Lady #2: What is the tattoo of, I can't see it.
Lady #3: It looks like flowers or something, very exotic.
Lady #4: That has to be her baby, they both have pretty blue eyes.
Lady#1: Yes, she does have Pretty blue eyes.
(I turn and smile at them)
Lady #3: Is that YOUR baby on your laptop?
Me: Yes it is.
Lady #4: She's beautiful! How old is she?
Me: 7 Months, her name is Avery
Lady #2: You look too young to be a momma
Lady#3: She your first?
Me: Yes, my husband and I are very blessed with her.
Lady#2: I'm glad you said that, you looked kinda glum when we sat here and now you've perked up.
Lady#3: Lydia, what a rude thing to say, she looks wonderful with her cute outfit, slim figure and those eyes, not to mention a beautiful baby girl.......I bet your husband is a looker too.
Me: haha, I would like to think so, I married him!
Lady#3: See, she has the good life.


Yeah see, I have the good life.

haha, I must mention they were all over 60 and were boistrious haha my kind of ladies.

They went on to eat their meals and I went on to fiddle on the laptop, occasionally I would come up in conversation as if I couldn't hear them...they pretty much went over every article of clothing I had on down to my "Very beautiful" earrings. haha and it was all stating positive things about me.

I'm in such a good mood right now, just what I needed.

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY TO ALL MY FRIENDS!