Wednesday, June 29, 2011

There's no such thing as a stupid question!

I had an amazing mentor of a teacher in HS by the name of Ms. Ellis who was a beautiful woman from the inside and out and anytime you had a question or asked to ask a question she would say one of two things. "No you may not but thanks for asking." or "There's no such thing as a stupid question."

She was on to something.....

It has been No secret that Evan and I have had a rough if not brutal end to the year and struggled into the new year with lots of uncertainty. Our marriage suffered, our friendships were flip flopped and our faith was tested both individually and as a couple. I can only say that My God never failed me, he never mislead me and he was and is and always will be with me even when I feel in the dark. I had my share of doubts, I will not sugar coat it since I am human but in the end I always knew thing would get better.

I just wasn't aware they would be THIS good.

I can not remember being this happy in my life, ever. I can't remember my knees being so sore or my heart so full all at once. My husband is happy in his job ( a first ), our marriage is at a peak, we live in a safe and welcoming neighborhood in a town we cherish, we have sweet friends who are true jewels in our lives are a constant blessing and things we thought were just nice dreams to have are actually looking like a real deal in the near future for us.

It's just surreal. We are so afraid to embrace it all because we are just so not used to so much going right. Haha

Last night was a dark place for me, I was struggling with my emotions and feelings over the financial issuance were having in getting Paris and Gus home and out of boarding where they have been since february 28th. Many of you know the real struggles Evan and I were going through trying every option we knew was available to us in trying to pay off the large bill keeping them away from us. I had a rude conversation with a employee at the clinic and felt like giving my babies up so they could be happy an the bill could stop growing and we could just start paying it off. Then I got a random call from a sweet friend who said "have you thought about who you should pray for on this other than you and Evan?"

I didn't quiet understand her and kinda got that miffed feeling like "pray? Have you seen my knees lately? Have you seen the carpet by my bed and couch!?" I got the praying thing down thank you very much.

And then I understood her exactly! So there I was having an ugly cry on the couch, feeling pathetic and just...drained. And I let it go. Yep, I let my pride go and prayed and then did something truly embarrassing for myself...

I asked for help. I asked for help on Facebook and twitter in the middle of the night on a Tuesday of all days.

I asked what in my opinion was a "stupid question" and the responses in less than an hour were overwhelming! I am still trying to sort out my humbled and awed feelings by the 15 txt messages, 8 emails, 4 voicemails and 3 comments I received last night. I honestly didn't think the people who responded even were real readers of my Fb and twitter to be honest! Just shows you never know who may be paying attention to you. Some of you who responded and offered help I sadly haven't spoken to in months and even years! There just are no words....

So needless to say this morning I woke up and answered a few emails, made a few calls and by 3pm I suddenly had in my possession the 2000$ to get my babies home before the end of the day!!! Yeah I'm crying all over again right now with just the craziness and unrealness of today. It just seems to easy an yet it's the best thing we have received since moving into our new home.

I won't discuss the details out of repect but we are loved and blessed by so many people, people we were not even aware of as much as we should have been and we truly believe in paying it forward and kharma. We can only pray the opportunity to do the same kindness soon for someone in need. To my sweet friends who offered help I can not say Thank You enough and to that special and amazing "Guardianship owner" I love you and you are truly a wonderful person in my life....going on....well....a lot of years! (15years)

So here I am crying yet again. Paris is asleep by Averys door (she has stayed very Close to Avery tonight). Gus is glued to the window watching the yard sprinklers go off and my daughter squealed and just ran to them when she saw them in their crate and Megan told her they were coming home with us (Megan and Bailey rode to Fort Worth with us for support).
*funny side note* my car broke down in the busiest intersection in Denton less than a mile from home!!! Poor Megan had to push my car to the parking lot ( thanks to the one guy a teenager no less who helped us get into the lot) I'm so embarrassed to say this but..... I was in such a rush to go get my babies, I didn't notice my car was on EMPTY! Yep after 11 years driving, I ran out of Gas for the first time ever. *facepalm* good thing Megan found it hilarious and took the girls inside for a treat while Evans mom picked me and the kittos up and drove up the 2 minute rode to my house to pick up Megans car and go get them.

Yeah...... Never a dull moment with me. Haha we were laughing so hard about it.

So Paris and Gus took a few hours to get used to the new place, Avery would run to Paris and hug her and ask how she was doing. Sweetest thing ever. I keep taking pictires of them and can tell they are already over it. Now we are complete again, everything is just so good and all because I asked a "stupid question". Hard to imagine what would have happened had I let my stubborn pride stick in place. I doubt I would be crying tears of joy and have Gus laying on my lap right now purring contentedly like he has missed me as much as I have missed him.

If your not a pet owner or animal lover I doubt you will ever truly understand the love I have for these two or the happiness they bring us and why we fought so hard and so long to keep them with us.everyone should be so lucky.

Thank You! Thank You! Thank You!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Judge me.

Who's going to the New Kids On The Block and Backstreet Boy concert in Dallas on Sunday?


I love having friends who think of me in various situations for last minute plans. In this case my amazingly patient friend Beth, who always invites me to things in which I constantly turn her down had an extra ticket to Sunday's concert and thought of me to go with. Glad I could say yes for once Beth.

Lord knows I need a night in a nice top with heels on and a head of hairspray and a face full of mineral makeup to remind me I'm more than a mommy. I'm excited, so many blessings in so many forms keep popping up for us to grab ahold of.

Love it!

Wonder if Joey and I will get a instant connection like I've dreamed of since I was 8.....

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Can it be?

Hold on tight, this is an actual update with 7 topics to discuss! Thanks for the input by two of my loyal stalkers.

First and foremost I hope you all enjoyed the Father's Day weekend. I will admit it's not my fave of holidays what with my family background and all as I have struggled for years with mixed feelings over it but with the help of Evan being a daddy and by his dad stepping up to the plate and filling in some holes and cracks of my heart with lots of love we had a really great day with family at the lake all day! So much fun and possibly a new tradition.

I'm pretty sure the majority of our "Summer plans" will revolve around the lake. for only 5$ we get an unlimited supply of beach, water, lounging and fun and without the big hassle of swarms of people, chlorine and Avery seeing lots of fun things to play with but not being big enough to do at water parks. We've been a few times and we have also hit up "Charles E. Queso" with Avery since during the week it's pretty empty and it's 20$ of air conditioned fun for a few hours.
 No big travel plans for us this summer...the fall and winter is full enough of that :) plus next year is looking busy too!

Our schedule has taken a bit of a dip lately with Evans work schedule. The past 3 weeks he has worked 6 days a week with little home time, but the extra pay is both ridiculous and helpful. when he isn't working an extra day or an extra hour or two during his shift he has also been going in at noon to help train people on 1st shift. Needless to say he is LOVING Peterbuilt and in return they are loving him too. I can't complain or gripe too much because I have way too many other friends who rarely get to see their spouses and in our case it's all volunteered by Evan but it has been a small adjustment and although I know it's to help with a few upcoming events,I just feel a little more overwhelmed with Avery lately without having my tag partner in the wings if you know what I mean...

The house is coming along. Slowly but surely. I promise once I get the empty boxes out of the empty dining room and the other boxes unpacked and out of our bedroom I will get a new video up so you can see some of the changes we have made/ how it looks not being so empty. I have planted some Lavender bushes in out backyard and they are doing good. I still plan on paying my brother to come in and take out a few bushes for me and to help clear out so flower beds so I can get either a fall veggie garden going or some annuals up. Still haven't decided yet. :)  Our Landlady is still the most amazing person we have ever had to deal with when it comes to rent or issues with a place. She is so laid back and gets stuff done ASAP. She is planning on painting the outside of the house this summer so that'll be fun to see what she decides on.

Gus and Paris are doing good, I got to hold them and love on them a few days ago and although it breaks my heart to have to leave them at the clinic I know it's not for too much longer. We plan on paying anywhere from 500$-700$ this Friday to demolish a huge part of the bill and if we can make 1 or 2 smaller payments in the next few weeks the Office manager has said he would let us take them home while paying off the last part of the bill. This is partly why Evan is taking on the extra work to help get the money faster and he also got a new card with low interest so we can max it out on the bill and then pay it off (and build credit). The staff at the clinic have to follow policy, I get that, I do. But they also know we're not horrible pet owners and it was the best option we had other than re-homing them when we were homeless and down on our luck. With that said I am thankful that they have been so sweet and loving and gracious to Paris and Gus and to Evan and I. It may have been frustrating for awhile but if we truly get them back once we pay half the bill and are allowed to make payments I will take back everything negative said about them. I can't think too much on having them with us, it's been a lonely 4 months and I know I have so much to make up to them and it just makes me cry so moving on....

I have something to share with you guys and gals who read my blog......a new recipe....and for the best brownies I have had in a lonnnnng time. I posted a few pictures on my FB of the finished product but here's the recipe.

Here's what you'll need:
1/2 cup vegetable oil

1 cup sugar

1 teaspoon vanilla

2 large eggs

1/4 teaspoon baking powder

1/3 cup cocoa powder

1/4 teaspoon salt

1/2 cup flour

1. Preheat oven to 350°.

2. Mix oil and sugar until well blended.  (I only used 1/3 oil)

3. Add eggs and vanilla; stir just until blended.

4. Mix all dry ingredients in a separate bowl.

5. Stir dry ingredients into the oil/sugar mixture.

6. Pour into greased 9 x 9 square pan.

7. Bake for 20 minutes or until sides just start to pull away from the pan.

8. Cool completely before cutting.

9. Note: I usually double the recipe and bake in a 9 x 13 pan. If you double the recipe, you will need to cook longer than 20 minutes.

I cooked mine for 30min and they turned out crispy and chewy (my fave way to enjoy them).

sooo sooo good, lemme know what you think about them after you make them. Trust me, they are too easy to pass up.

Well, I think I have run out of things to blog about. Ha. Or maybe not...while I think of some things here's some update pictures of the cuppycake and all her cuteness.....
Having fun at Charles E. Queso!

 Cousins who look way too much like siblings.

Krystal 1, Chevy 2 and Avery 2.5

My brother and Chevy.

Oh yeah, I may not have shared this on Blogger but...I have a niece (Stella Elayne aka- StellaBella) on the way come October 30th! I also have another niece or nephew on the way come January or Feb of next year. I will keep my opinions closed for now on the latest news but I am happy to have some new little ones to spoil cause we all know I'm a pretty cool Auntie.

In conclussion I am going to ask for some ideas, tips, etc from you about things to do and see on our future trips we have planned. Here's what's solid and then what's in the works for next year!!! I'm so excited about all of this.

September- Camping in NM, probably Red River again.

December 21-January 2nd- Staying in a cabin in Evergreen, Colorado for Christmas and to see family in Arvada, followed by a detour to Missouri to see family in Grant City and then to celebrate our 6th Wedding anniversary and NYE in Kansas City.

March-Spring Break trip to Port Aransas.

May/June- Week Trip to Portland, OR to visit Jarrod and Sarah!!!

August or September- LONDON! I have a very close friend who is stationed with her husband and kiddos in Lavenhearth, England which is 70miles North East of London and we plan on seeing them in the fall! (Or once we have enough saved for airfare)  :)

See! So much to look forward to, especially when so much of it is already sign, sealed and ready for delivery.

Love it.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Bloggers block?

*insert update here*

Or just send me comments about why I should update and or what I should update about.

Monday, June 6, 2011

A little on the meh side.....

Seems like here in Texas the weather has decided that several 100 degree days seem perfect before summer officially starts so we can brace ourselves for whats to come. UGH! Sadly as beautiful as it looks outside the heat is just unbearable and Avery takes after her uncle Jarrod in the fact that she doesn't sweat when she gets overheated. Nope her hair gets damp, her face ubber red, and then she gets dizzy or so we think since She will sit and cry while rubbing her eyes or she can't walk straight. So per doctors orders we limit all outdoor activities to early morning and then stay inside and play or watch movies.

Having Evan home the majority of the day helps in a big way but the evenings leave me with way too much freetime and nowhere to go with it or anything to do until Avery crashes. I hit up a book sale at the main library 2 weeks ago where I got around 20 books for 11$!!! Needless to say I'm enjoying good books at night and Avery is loving some as well. Besides enjoying these new books Im also watching way too many Movies since my bad habit of waiting for Evan to get home after 1am is still oddly in effect even though I keep saying I won't do it.

Not much to report sadly, life is great but a little on the lame and boring side. Which mind you, is not a complaint at all. We are still trying to make payments and save up to pay the over 1000$ bill to get Gus and Paris out of boarding in Watagua and we have two amazing trips planned for the later part of the year but more on those at another time.

Avery has her first sleep over currently happening here with her friend Bailey. 2 girls is way more crazy than I thought but after the first 2 hours of not sharing and arguing over everything they soon settled down and were inseparable and nothing but giggles and loud whispers for the last 15min of quiet time after I read 3 princess books.

Sorry to bore you with this post, I'll give a better update soon.


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