I hate goodbyes.

This morning at 6:30am we hugged Jarrod and Sarah one last time, swatted away a few more tears than expected and ignored the gnawing ache is our chests that seem like a dull ache that won't go away now. They are officially out of Texas and on the road to Portland Oregon. Their new home.

I got a Deja vu moment that in 16 years I'm going to feel this exact same way but possibly more so as Avery is my baby and not my sibling.

I'm so proud of Jarrod for taking this adventure in life but at the same time I can help but hurt for him, for the tough road ahead as he settles into an unknown area with no real support system or base other than Sarah. I know, I know, I'm such a mom. I love you both dearly and hope this ends up being a huge blessing for you both.

I literally had a huge cryfest once we got home. It just hit me so hard that Jarrod is no longer 10min away and won't be able to get me laughing on a bum day. I also just don't like seeing Nan and Gary cry, it's just like a hit to the heart and I somewhat understand what they are feeling as parents.

As a sweet Mothers day gift to Nan and Sarahs mom, Maggie, I got everyone together in matching outfits and had a mini photo shoot at North lakes park. I seriously can't wait to edit these pics they look so dang good! Good memories too.

Jarrod, I hope you know how much I love you. I didn't tell you enough and today as I hugged you I couldn't seem to stop telling you. Can't wait to see you in December(HOPEFULLY). It feels like a lifetime from now.